autistic nerd

2009-11-08T08:16:00.002+08:00

You will always have your side of the story to tell.
And to be frank, im tired of being your back up plan im tired of being "when all else fails turn to me" cos when i fail i dint see anyone for me to turn to.
what a thorny irony.

2009-11-03T02:17:00.003+08:00

I find myself always on the verge of emotions, it seems that the older i grow the more sensitive i become. Looking at things not from rationale's perspective, like how i used to see sense in every thing. The sense of logic seems to die with age, 17 years of age and i've never felt as crappy as how im feeling now. Sunshine is clouded by anger,rainbow is shrouded by mixed feelings that i cant pen down. Put it simply, i feel like shit.

2009-10-21T23:03:00.002+08:00

GOOD NEWS
O levels officially begins tomorrow and it kicks off with sci practical
my relatively big head with no substance is gonna pop like the lighted splint soon.
Im losing my cool,Im plucking hair off my scalp,Im chewing on my tongue when i come in contact with math.

The sweetest agony.

2009-09-27T16:55:00.002+08:00

Lip tatt, Luv Itz!
i'm really down because the school wants me to get my haircut and now its really hideous.
Sigh.

p.s- laugh like i never breathe,love like i never lived.

WN.

2009-09-14T22:25:00.002+08:00

JENNIFER'S BODY. HOT AS HELL LUV ITZ!

PISSED. (vulgar)

2009-09-04T00:55:00.005+08:00

I cant stand control freak, people who tries to dominate you. Like seriously just get out of my life.. Although controlling may be for my own good and for the sake of my oh so bright future? YA go ahead curb my spending, my time out and fucking curfew me to the least freedom. See how long can you hold me back.. So what if im the worst kid in the entire block, so what if im an empty vessel, fucking so what if i have my damn mind shrouded with nothing but evil intentions and filled with ideas on how to have fun without paying any attention to any other important aspects of life. Because ultimately i believe.. either be the worst kid or the best i dont wanna be stuck somewhere in the middle. I cant say im truly happy and contented with where i am now but i can say at least im not going around with a facade on, pretending that im happy with life when im not. This is just me, take it or leave it.

I just need to rant pardon me. Any wisewords ?

tmr will be a better day...
if only i dont have to wake up and face the fact that o levels are nearing and i fucking hate it.
i hate o levels, my future is screwed i am digging my own grave.
TOO BAD FOR ME.
ok now just fuck off pls. fucccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk offffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff

Michael Jackson - Smile

2009-08-16T22:42:00.001+08:00

Was never a MJ fan in the past, i always thought he was gay and all. Though he looked nothing like human when he was alive, because of the numerous times he went under the knife but neverthless his music and talent has the capability to allow us to overlook or even ignore his strange physical appearance.
And its real ironic, how media also has the capability to create an iconic king of pop and on the contrary crush him.. with love, rest in peace.

Your legacy will live on for generations to come. (:

2009-08-13T22:58:00.006+08:00

I the very happy this week and last week, like eventful only my life. So much to do so little time, last weekend was a blast! Sheesha till my lungs also sore. Martinis dont taste as bad as they smell,my god they smell like ammonia with shit. EH but, prelims hectic lah wahlao, and at the rate im going i will die. And i very angry,cos my mum said my hair very thick look like ah peh.

okay time to ............ say bye bye

i have a date with hermia and helena. I think they are a tad bit hotter than megan fox.

DRROOLLLLLLLLLL.....................!

2009-08-04T23:36:00.002+08:00

I had great fun today, the annual class photo taking was nothing but heaps of laughter. We've been through real rocky days that brought together our class spirit and bonding, although things and relations are no longer how they used to be, i am pretty sure somewhere deep down inside that love for each other never did extinguish it was just ignored.

Its a Tuesday which means tuition day, math tuition. Im am seriously so damn freaking worried for my math. I've never suck and dislike any subject to this extent,its like having a phobia towards numbers. But ironically i cant do without math, my foundation for math is prolly standing on stilts made of sand and i only have two more months. Im am freaking out
It all boils down to me playing paper aeroplanes in math classes 2 years ago. I regret..

Not gonna dwell

2009-07-27T14:50:00.002+08:00

I've been spending my weekends in a really systematic routine. Which needless to say,bores me to the extreme. However it was still an emotional and beautiful week. I see gloomy clouds and rainy weather when i try to picture this and next week,its the beginnings of prelims starting next week which is to say no more fun and jumping around this week. Its time to smell and breathe books,the thought of it irks me and makes me feel really angst and i know how much ground i have to make up with so much to squeeze into my slightly-bigger-than-pea brain with so little time. Inevitably spells d-e-a-t-h.
To add on to my woes and sorrows.. is the finance part. I super the very broke, and i have no idea where i spend my money on. They seem to appear this moment and disappear the next ?

And the last crushing weight and burden would be you.
You have the ability to create miracles and
good things good feelings anchors down deep in me at your presence.
but they never last, and i really hope good happenings last as long as possible.
Cos im not gonna dwell here anymore i promise, im moving on. regardless

2009-07-20T21:09:00.007+08:00

it sucks. cos i miss you and i miss you so much

stay away or all the way. pretty sure either aint going to make me feel any better, but well.

life is a garden,have fun (:

And i desperately need a study partner who can take long hours of studying.

gosh,im in so much trouble.

2009-07-12T05:57:00.002+08:00

Its 6am in the morning right now, I'm still wide awake so is my mum.
Here she is slogging her life away,waking at the crack of dawn just to put that rice bowl on our table to and fulfil her tedious responsibility as a mum and here i am still hanging out late and not doing anything to at least make her proud of her son. Sigh,what am i becoming?

my rotten apples

2009-07-05T16:05:00.007+08:00

Our cute amanda trying to act cute !

A last min decision to club turned out really fun actually. ThE NEXT DIMENSION!!!!!!

love is not about how much you get,but how much you give.

Was at the NDP preview yesterday evening.6E bbq after the parade.stone till dawn.hit the stackwoke up, here i am in front of my lappy.waiting for char's call.

A glimpse in my head. A five cent worth point of view

2009-06-01T22:14:00.005+08:00

Hi,its been awhile since i last done a proper update. Everything feels kinda on the right track now, at least as far as i know. Well that would for sure exclude my studies, im starting to wonder whether was it a wise decision for me to take my o levels this year or would it be better for me and my parents if i went to ite. Fancy dreaming about going to JC or poly seems so distanced and unrealistic right now, i was so horrified at my mid year results. Nevertheless i am aware that my result would inevitably ignite the burning sparks in my parents -_- and hell i was right. Sigh

Yes yes i'm also aware that i disappoint them and that i failed as a son cos to them my responsibility and priority right now should be studies instead of hanging out at night. Not saying that they are wrong, i know i am suppose to study but sometimes i really wonder are we studying for knowledge or are we studying for that pay cheque in the not so far-away future or just simply studying to become working machines that works with no intention,purpose and enthusiasm towards life. I mean we only live once and if we're gonna spend our life slogging away for money, i see no point in living, it is true i'm not gonna go anywhere w/o at least a degree but if studying is just for the sake of money that will be used to satisfy our material needs i rather not study. It just totally ruin the whole purpose of studying and burns away my interest and zest towards the pursue of knowledge..

well.. what is the future? "FUCK THE FUTURE, BECOS THE FUTURE IS NOW" -horinaka.com If we're all gonna take look at the "future", who is to say we might not even need education to survive in this fast paced society in the "future"..

i would rather go back to the most primitive point of man-kind when the only struggle for survival was just struggling to hunt for food. Simple and really basic. Having said all of these nonsense i must still emphasise on the importance of studying cos this is reality, all of it was just my wishful thinking, i just needed my time out and shouting space on how i feel and i cant possibly share it with my parents or friends cos they would prolly think I'm crazy and suggest i quit school.

WELL WELL. I'll work hard i promise.

2009-05-13T23:35:00.002+08:00

Its been a long and hectic two weeks for me, with exams smack right in my face. Sigh

He finally left..well at least i know he won't be suffering the way he was... I'm sure it was an immediate pain relief, though you left without saying goodbye i'm not saying goodbye but see you.. cos i know years down the road i will join you in the house of our fore-fathers. (:
With love.
I need a break.

quintessence of pain. (?)

2009-05-03T01:27:00.018+08:00

Pictures taken last year during the trip to genting. Like finally after nearly six months...i receive the pics. Dont ask why the fuck were we dressed like that,i know super YP to the extreme.
THIS IS ALEX. As you can all see... he looks like any typical guy with long hair you see on street. well perhaps with that constipated face of his he can never look good on photos. But im here to prove you wrong, cos under my camera skills i capture miracle! HAHA scroll down..!

TADAH!!!! *DRUMS ROLL*

HANDSOME RIGHT. Edison chen prolly had to bow to
him. Well,even if you are as ugly as chahba we

wil still love you. (:

Teddies as usual but this time with a slightly bigger group of friends. I was kinda stuck right at the middle,had to juggle with two groups of friends which was not an easy task. Sigh, really wondered why things ended up the way it is right now. It is not like you guys quarreled over anything big right,it was purely out of my my good intention trying to bring both groups tgt in hoping that things could be sorted out but it seems to me that my plan was rather screwed and backfired on me. :( Once again i feel like im a lousy friend.I never like hamsters, or rather i never like rats. I know hamsters are a different breed rats but they are still classified under the rat category which ultimately makes them smell as bad as street rats. But val's hammie is cute, it is also the first time i don't smell bad odour that rats give out.

Miss kang was sharing with us about characteristics of different horoscopes, did not expect someone like miss kang to actually believe in something as skeptical as horoscope readings. haha, but nonetheless gotta admit some part of it was rather true.. like how a typical aries like me remains obdurate and refuses to give in.. and how aries can never click well with perfectionist like virgos and scorpios. These are the signs that speak with direct,accurate and abit of sarcasm, which is obviously why i can't stand some of these people. These people hit you where it hurts! And sad to say.. aries can never put down their high ego, i know there are times when we have to just shove our selfish ego aside but i cant seem to do so. I know by saying this im only looking after own desires: concerned with my own interests, needs, and wishes while ignoring those of others. But by trying to be a perfectionist you are not so perfect yourself.

Recently,my uncle was down with terminal stage cancer which led me to reflect on how short life can be. You see, on an average each of us has around 70years to live.. Its not really 70 years if you really think about it.

The most basic necessity would alrdy be the one that consumes most of your time which is sleep.. No one can do without sleeping that im sure but humans actaully spend 3/4 of their lifetime sleeping. If you are sleeping for like 8 hours a day that would be aprox 240 hours one month which is to say 6 days of your 1 month would we spend on sleeping. 6 dayS! geess...

So what I'm trying to say here is life is really really short and fragile you won't even know whats gonna happen to you the next second, i might just die halfway through typing this long essay who is to say you will live till 70, there is no assurance. My uncle is only 60 and he too could not escape the clutches of death and sickness, it really had a significant impact on me.. It really left me pondering on why is reality so cruel towards us, at the age of 60 its just so not fair. & it really really really hurts. I've lost grandparents to cancer not another one pls.

spinny!

2009-04-25T12:17:00.007+08:00

Hello! I've been kinda great these days. My mundane days are filled with Adrenalin,yes including the longs hours in school. As a matter of fact for the years to come I'm sure i will harbour this positive mindset. Jess was right i should not make raining feels as though its pouring,learning to look at life with rapture and from another angle. Its indeed filled with colours

k.jones was at my place for the past one week,and it was awesome! Even more awesome for him i reckon, free lodging and food where can you find such kill deals! Well sadly,he is leaving tmr evening and won't be back till july.. talk about coming back to s'pore at the wrong month of the year (why not June instead -.-)

Sidetracking a little.. i was thinking about getting myself a SLR,digicams just don't capture quality pictures and the battery goes flat too quickly. Prolly gonna get it by end of this year.. but SLRs are just too costly and i've got real butterfingers :(

Another event! I always feel so liberated when there are events, like i am free from schooling and books for that one night. I'm hoping and keeping my fingers cross this coming event next week is not going to be as catastrophic as rupee room. On the other hand, I've not been sleeping enough for the past two weeks gotta stop staying up late otherwise its gonna this is gonna take its toll on my mental and physical health. (LOL yeh right like i bother) oh yes i wanna thank short and fen for being such great partners for the past two weeks (had agreat time with you guys)

ill.

2009-04-16T21:19:00.005+08:00

Hi. Rupee room was horrid.. lol. The sheer presence of bouncers should be giving you that intimidating feel so that it serves its purpose of keeping security and order at the highest peak but ironically... Freaking 3 fight took place and those who got involved in the fight actually got the chance to kick each other assses right down the ground before bouncers stroll in...

so much for order & security alright just drop it, irks me to the extreme.

Nyway.. last Saturday was cycling. tedious and painful but nonetheless i feel way more healthy on the whole after that day... but it spells catastrophic impact on my ass.. think I'm down with piles after all the abrasion between the seat and my ass.

This lil cutie came meowing and purring to me while i was having my dinner,it was hungry i guess. Poor thing, whats more its only a kitten like not bigger than any street rat and it was super skinny. I hope there are more people in sg who can show abit more compassion towards these cuties.......
CORY LAQUAY!!!!! me god!

17th

2009-04-08T17:07:00.010+08:00

DRINK

DRANK DRUNK?

happy 17th was really happy, Enjoyed myself. Thanks for everything! its school as usual now but its tmr is gonna be a blast cos there is another event! can't wait! & there is no school on friday. rejoice.

Everyday will be a blessing.

2009-03-28T02:35:00.005+08:00

Apple of my eyes x10 to the power of one million.!!!!!
finally.. some well deserved rest after 5 days.
I'm glad my effort paid of for CT. super glad

breathe for love tomorrow cause there is no hope for today.

2009-03-24T15:00:00.003+08:00

(yahoo image search-dozziedog.com)

I want a husky for birthday thats all i ask

I want nothing but a husky.

Its cuter than any eyecandy.

tedious but filled with zest

2009-03-21T02:12:00.006+08:00

Stjames deserves a round of applause.
I think it was better than RompIV maybe because it was'nt so dense.

i was so captivated, mesmerised, bewitched basically all the vocab you can find to show the laws of attraction by..

ok,its like (beauty queen of only dont know what age always belong to someone else)

ahhhhhhhh.sucking sucked.

i saw a rainbow&its pretty.wow

they say god give you children so that you can receive roses on december. Well gracie you gave me a garden full.. -harrystampler

2009-03-17T15:48:00.003+08:00

rompIV
zouk was great,but it would be even better if there was a bigger dance floor
looking forward to st james this thurs.

2009-03-09T15:38:00.000+08:00

My Dear Lucy,
I wrote this story for you, but when I began it I had not realized that girls grow quicker than books. As a result you are already too old for fairy tales, and by the time it is printed and bound you will be older still. But some day you will be old enough to start reading fairy tales again. You can then take it down from some upper shelf, dust it, and tell me what you think of it. I shall probably be too deaf to hear, and too old to understand, a word you say, but I shall still beyour affectionate Godfather,C.S. Lewis

aww!

2009-03-02T19:35:00.004+08:00

friday saturday sunday wasnt a blast at all sadly. Nothing seem to be going on well and nothing came tgt ironically everything fell apart infact. sucked big time
nevertheless conquered my own damn fear of height like by trying something i never wanna try if it wasnt for endless persuasion. something as crazy as slide up?! it felt like my balls were on air kinda thing haha.
on the lighter note i've got a nice tan and a big bruise at my rib.
im cool with a big bruise cos at least i've got a nice tan in return so i guess its fair this way.
nyway h'bbday amanda,sherri and chinyi.

and was supposed to get me pair of greeny green shoes from cotton on - forget it.
couldnt find shoes so i took another alternative- indulge in flavour!!!!
ate taiwan chicken on the way home and holly molly nbcb plastic bag gave its freaking way
and dear lies my chicken on the rock hard ground.

cheong: i saw you at peni.
me: likereally!
cheong: ya really i had blue hair then & i saw amanda in the toilet
me: -.-
ok fine inside jokes.

and mum's been preetty crazy recently she wants to "scribble" a peony(mudan hua) on the damn wall N its not like small and kawaiii kind its going to be the size of a dinosaur.

& i feel like its raining in my bedroom raining everywhere sigh.sigh.sigh
but i know mr sun is just around the corner hang in there!
i will find my way out like always.

2009-02-19T21:53:00.002+08:00

CASSADEE POPEY POPEPEOEPEP is my hayley number 2
so much love!

at least i love them becos of their music and style. she is hotter than any of your edward cullen the vamp.
"laughs" vamp -.-
ahahahaha

will be different.

2009-02-16T21:22:00.004+08:00

i will be oblivious to my surroundings. Cos right now all im gonna focus on is my exam.
This exam that either make or break me my future will be shaped out through this exam.
So really im not goona bother about anything neither will i let anything affect me. I will cut myself away from daily distraction. Yes im so darn selfish.
Fuck the world.

one who laugh last, laugh best.
imagaine working along side by side with the hottest vet in sg. cheryl tay GRINS :DDDDDDDDD
of cos its not for cheryl its for my passion.- if only animals rule the human world.
bye

2009-02-11T22:55:00.004+08:00

Test aplenty recently. physics 's a goner.
realised only at the end of the test that my calculator was at radian mode instead of degree mode. Two thumbs up!! i got a critical angle that makes no sense- 0.53 or something, and that darn question was like 3~4 marks worth. great
Next up is ss and chem,need to at least pass these two sub cos the subject teacher - my form and co-form. suck cock!

V'day is on its way how am i supposed to feel?
okay never mind this occasion was not meant for boys under 18 anyway.

bearing in mind things will all soon be fine after the downfall.
life is fair.

bye.merryxmas
zeebo the cat.

2009-01-28T19:20:00.002+08:00

i did like last min shopping last week which was totally pointless because you don't have to buy new clothes just because of Chinese new year. But nonetheless i got myself 5 t-shirt and spend like 1xx dollars and now i can feel that tingling feeling of regret plus abit of guilt creeping in. sigh

oh yes. you guys should watch bridewars its heartwarming.

If that movie had the ability to make frankestein look alike feel ?(heartwarmed)? even when old frank had no heart to start with im sure the rest of you people out there will be reduced to tears.

I started with 50cents ytd and won like 30dola! AWESOME HUH!

JI SHAO CHEN DUO. chinese chen yu

2009-01-20T18:33:00.005+08:00

i feel like hayley right now- stupid..............

Wo 17 years old this year..
and it kinda feels very odd to still be in dmn.
if only wo study more yon gong during psle i would be alrdy be moving on to the next verse life- poly life.

Its xue siao very day-monotonous really!
& i guess cher's options of putting me yong and john tgt at the back row kinda backfired on them.
with like cheong at my right yong at my left and john barely a metre away plus plus a bonus of darren and adam on my extreme left. You can expect obnoxious behaviour, And true enough...
two chers walked out on us! (we caused one walking out. as for the other IDK why(?))
i think chers should not use such obsolete methods i dont think its working, instead of walking out of class i think they should CLARIFY who is causing the disturbance in the peaceful,serene classroom. Like dont judge the whole population cos of one. sigh
i need to change seat.

also i need to mean it when i SMILE. im more & more like a hypocrite recently and my mind is kinda disconnected from my body.... like some non living thing with no emotions inside and all vacant.
WO YAO CHANGE INTO someone with radiant smile and always feeling gay
HOPEfully chinese xin nian will add some positive drive into me. im going to stuff myself with all the bagua and p-apple tarts i can grab on. i dont like bagua actually but gotta add it in cos whats CNY w/o bagua and i only like the tart of p-apple tart. i HATE pineapple- its like a fusion of apple with some yellow stuff. a major turn off the fruit itself looks like some creature can you imagine p-apple with hands and legs and than imagine an apple with hands and leg! The apple is like totally cuter than the pineapple. Sucks, i sidetracked like this __________

im an alien.
bye

2008-12-29T03:08:00.004+08:00

I always hungry when it is way past midnight,i feel so nocturnal like some owl out to hunting for food. (?) and im talking no sense recently. god-knows-why

new year is around the corner.
im not excited jus becos its a brand new year with new beginnings partly cos im kinda expecting shit to be thrown right at me in 2009? call me pessimist. Rather im more like looking forward to the countdown party. >.< <- excited face
its the last party before school officially open its big gates at our faces.

Christmas waasnt a blast at all. sticky and smelly.. got to bear with the awful truth of spelling my Christmas "CHRISTMAST" INSTEAD OF Christmas. DAMN. Making me sound like some alien who cant spell Christmas. like imagine CHRISTMAST treee..

FYI.

i think luna looks way better than harry potter himself.

& I HAD TTHIS REALLY STRANGE DREAM.
like statue of liberty with cocked eye like the one in genting.
he/she/it was talking to me about how difficult life was to be standing in the same posture from dont know since when and many years to come. pity really.
bye

2008-12-24T02:20:00.003+08:00

I've been having so much fun.
i just got back from genting,and it was awesome i should say.
what is ironic would be that i never ever enjoy going overseas perhaps because i don't like long distance travelling and i've got serious motion sickness which really sucks to the extreme...
motion sickness when I'm on the plane,car,bus or whatever...even bicycle?
The only way to get to genting is to get to genting..
well by bus actually, BUS LEH.
you can do it by plane but you will have to land in KL and take a BUS..
so whats the point. Conclusion is 10 hours of my life was wasted on a bus..
moving on to the weather.. to sum it up. it was darn COLD.
even fat people like bird could not take it.
-many rides were close due to the weather
-paid shit price for theme park and spend most of the time waiting for our turn
-people from ahem country has got shitty attitude
-eat like a pig.
SLEPT LIKE 16 hours in 4 days
which was not enough at all.
JET LAG LIKE !@#$%^&*()
& wen fen was laughing at me cos she said jet lag/bus lag was not possible with the time difference between genting and sg ITS POSSIBLE LALALALALA

got my n lvl results- happy with it.
moving on to o lvl next year
i reckon ill do well
god bless
picturezx up asap

2008-12-03T02:24:00.001+08:00

It's a shame that it had to be this wayIt's not enough to say I'm sorryIt's not enough to say I'm sorry
Maybe I'm to blameOr maybe we're the sameBut either way I can't breatheEither way I can't breatheAll I had to say is goodbyeWe're better off this way
We're better off this wayI'm alive but I'm losing all my driveCause everything we've been throughAnd everything about youSeemed to be a lieA guiltless twisted lie
It made me learn to hate youOr hate myself for letting it pass by

EMO OH EMO.
life screws around too much with me.
darn.

2008-11-22T02:37:00.003+08:00

getting ready to get drunk tmr.
it's helmet,dog and birds' birthday! HELL I'm so not excited because its gonna be so expensive.
& plus I'm still in dilemma on the what to wear for tmr. Zzz
and my sis got 251 for psle.
WTF.
fine................................
there she is Anglican high.
here i am.
dunman the famous neighbourhood school.
yawns.

99/100

2008-11-14T23:08:00.004+08:00

Gave extra lesson a miss. Cos i dint felt like waking up from my hibernation.
Yes how i wish i could sleep my time away, sleep my life away. At least you're not aware of anything thats happening around you. Too much conflicts recently, too much to brood over recently. Gotta agree,ignorance is bliss...

O.c.h with monkey group. Its laugh out loud fun!
everyday is funfilled but still i feel so empty so vulnerable.
So vacant, i've been long craving for something.
YOU know it feeeels sooo uhuhuh~!
GAGAGAGA
like waking up on the wrong side of the bed, having a fishbalz stuck by your throat.
DAMN. &&& im so drawn your presenc :(
same old line- love myself hate the world.

2008-11-03T00:00:00.003+08:00

Class chalet in a couple of days.

Hell im so excited!
Except screw the part where ill have to go back to school for extra lessons, GEEESSS.
im okay with the studying, just that the waking up part is kinda like toxic. And im still doubtful on whether will i make it for Os next year.

Hey! Alvin was talking about this lochness monster the whole time this evening so i decided to to put an end to this lochness myth. He was indeed trying uber hard to prove to me it's mere existance even when we all showed skeptical attitude..
he was saying nonsense like ~ THEY GOT A PICTURE OF A LOCHNESS! AND LOCHNESS HABITAT IS LIKE 1000m BENEATH THE SEA? >.<

The "Surgeon's photo" (1934), later revealed as a hoax
there has not been any physical evidence
(pictures and text source from wikipedia.)

believe it or not?
for me its a NO.

BYEBYE off to the land of MONSTERS (:

2008-10-26T03:22:00.002+08:00

I apologise for the lil attension paid to my bloggy for the entire 2 months.
& besides i've got no peekturesss to upload.
So mind you, its gonna be more wordy than a dictionary..

My "n" levels are already over and done with like 20 days ago and im still not getting a job?..
HOW CAN?! I'll be in a serious financial crisis this holiday based on my daily activities..
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ Money makes the world go roundddddd $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
My holidays been pretty much of a bore really. Its almost like DOTA Dota from monday to thursday, and on fridays we occasionally journey ourselves to katong- For laksa and dota again.
-_- WOW, define interesting.
I wanna do meaningful activities like clean up the beach,help ah peh sell newspaper,gather at some one's house to cook.
Sigh. I guess my ideas will sound all senseless and silly to others.
LAUGHSZ.

Oh let me share a joke!
We were playing 5 v 5 with some noisy tards at tamp mart late evening today.
&&&&&&&!! we got our asses preettyy badly OWNED actually.
But thats not it!
The joke of the day was~ Qiang's bounty hunter had his item slots filled with rings!!!
Like he was level 8 and he's got- ring of regen,ring of basilus(whatever the spelling),ring of protection and 4 tango!
FUNNY RIGHT!!! his BH was more like someone selling rings-.-!!!
HAHAHAHA.
right i guess by the time i finish this whole post most humans with a proper sense of humour would have died from lameness.

I miss and love jess.
i miss and love char.
i miss and love the whole group of them
i miss and love auntie mummy
i miss and love my primary school lovessss
SIGH.
hate the world, love myself.
BYE

2008-10-10T23:18:00.000+08:00

Im special, I feel special, i wanna be special
no more ordinary.
however. Im so sick everything
i wonder..

2008-08-31T01:36:00.004+08:00

I found myself back in my primary school yesterday though i was worned out after cross country. And i must say im rather proud of 4G, We ran like mad dogs. Despite the wet and humid weather it dint affect our class spirit for that little bit. I felt the drive to run, though i dint came in first neither was i the last ;) one thing is for sure i really ran, pushed my legs to the maximum limit. Hope ill be able to use that drive for N levels.
Okay, i shall stop the bragging.
Moving on to the primary school part, I freaking wanna kill chris that moron met up with me after cross country and he asked me to follow him home,than to polyclinic to get an MC. OF COS I WONT BE THAT DUMB TO SAY YES without any terms and conditions, HE PROMISED TO BE MY COMPANY FOR THE WHOLE DAY. but he left after getting his mc. -_-

6E.- 2004.
I left 6E feeling all reluctant & lost. I dint know what to expect after my primary school life, i was so used to being spoon-fed by teachers, I was all blended into my group of pri school friends, the whole environment. The feeling of running to the canteen to get my food,senseless stories about particular classrooms or places that are haunted and just having fun after school, carefree trouble free i was far from stress and just every small detail about how i spent my 6 years in esps.
& now its been 4 years since i felt that way. I felt that bliss once again, yesterday. when i was with most of my pri school friends and back in my pri school. To see how much your friend teachers school changed i came to realise that none of my friend can make me feel 12yrs old again. And simply just by sitting down and chit chat for 6 to 7 hours can make all of us feel so contented and im sure if time would permit we would have wanted it to stop cos hours of chatting aint enough to cover up for years of drifting.. Cos you guys are the biggest blessing. LOTS OF LOVE (:

2008-08-18T21:51:00.004+08:00

Its Funny how people can put up such a strong front when they are feeling all weak and jelly on the inside.

I want an extraordinary event to happen! An event with divine intervention! My life is such a bore!
Divine interventions like snowing in Singapore,
Endless cash flow
Eternal bliss and happiness
At best of health
imagine life at its most perfect, you feel no sorrow.
how magnificent would it be? life with grandeur and lavishness.
I CRAVE!

IM A HAPPY KID, YOU ARE A HAPPY KID
IM A HAPPY KID, YOU ARE A HAPPY KID
IM A HAPPY KID, YOU ARE A HAPPY KID
IM A HAPPY KID, YOU ARE A HAPPY KID
IM A HAPPY KID, YOU ARE A HAPPY KID
IM A HAPPY KID, YOU ARE A HAPPY KID
am i really a happy kid? whats happy? -.-

2008-08-14T22:57:00.002+08:00

PRELIMS GONNA END TMR!
REJOICE EARTHLING!
on the other hand. It marks the start of my N levels.
sigh.
Who created exams? I seriously wanna dismantle that fag into a million bits.
2 weeks of prelims i can confidently say i'm NOT gonna make it, the most crucial subject called English was EYE OPENER! WOW. The questions are so literature, Im going to give thanks to all the gods if i can barely clinch a passing grade.

why find fault with me?
why pick the little details which i cant spot.
its like finding a needle in a haystack only that the haystack is way bigger.
TOODLES.
amitaba bless.

2008-07-28T20:44:00.004+08:00

The best way to start your Mondays is to go to school and get accused by your teachers. Horoscope's reading tells me stuff like "things are gonna get better". What da shit. Nothing seems to be going on fine. neither physical nor mental.

God bless.

and yes i miss you. alot

2008-07-22T20:45:00.005+08:00

I'm sorry for using more words than necessary to express my thoughts in my previous post.
Totally redundant, No one knows shit about what im blabbering about. Amusing
Prelims are near ironically zero drive to study. My attention span could only last for around an hour? WOW. what concentration huh? I'm working with shortiee to extend our attention span from ONE hour to at least ONE hour FIFTEEENNN MINS. Well at least its still a form of achievement.
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KRTC & MECHMASTERS
DOTA ATOD DOTA AOTD. EVERYDAY!
im gonna pucking own all LAN shops in sg when i grow up.
ENDLESS INCOME as long as there are people like us.
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SUPER LOW SELF-esteem
Times when you feel small,fat,stupid & ugly.
Im not trying to gain shit sympathy from people cos im not that pathetic really.
Just heartfelt words.
Look into the mirror and whatever thats reflected off the mirror looks all screwed up.
Thats how i am feeling now.

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unknowingly you became MY
mundane concerns of day-to-day life.
unknowingly you became MY
prudent judgment even on simple situation or facts in short common sense.
I felt stuck when everything became stuck-up.
Cos i've fallen so deeply.

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2008-07-20T16:41:00.001+08:00

I found inspiration to love.
please be true.
give me the ability to tell whats right and whats not.
lots of love really.

2008-07-13T23:20:00.002+08:00

-MY FEVER DRAIN OFF ALL MY VITALITY.
-I was a zombie/living-dead for the past four days.
help.
-medication from doctors aint working out, i guess i need the "heart medicine".
-planing to be late for school tmr (with AH-MAN-DUA)
-throat swollen till the gap for me to swallow whatever becomes this small -> ()
-gotta stay back after school tmr to finish up coursework? and the deadline is tmr? what da fish!
-im not happy. depresseddd in fact.
BYE ;D

2008-07-06T23:38:00.003+08:00

Your life is filled with "what if". Why do you assume things?. You know how your assumptions led you to your downfall time and time again.
It was just because you were silly or rather it was because you were blinded or overwhelmed by your emotions. Look with heart rather than eyes.
& now your worst nightmare sets in blame no one but yourself.
laugh at your own misery,because you were the one who brought it upon yourself.
HAHA.
Disappointment starts with just a single dash of hope.
-cos you're Not that impossible to find.

2008-06-23T19:30:00.002+08:00

PEOPLE.
Get ready to get to scream in awe-some-ness!
MY SCHOOl. >DUNMAN SECONDARY is WOW!
it went through few months of renovation and "poof" it became like... (speechless)
Double the size,triple the coolness,four times the fun! and its only like half way through the construction.
And so, its the first day of school after a long one month holiday. Im finding it hard to blend into the whole schooling mood.
Besides the fact that my school looks all so cool & classy. It looks so different now that it feels like you're in another school or something. Partly because we got used to how it was when it was under renovation, making d-tours because main roads were all blocked with barricades, the small and cramped compound that restrained us to the most minimum activity. So yeah such change all of a sudden, its only natural to feel uncomfortable right? no?
& 4g1 and 4g2= combine class= 4G.
another shocking news. Not saying we're reluctant to combine but its just so redundant what for force two different class into unity after like 2 yrs of seperation? it was afterall the school's decision to split us up. So contradicting themselves! Zz (im vocing out not complaning, afterall the school has really done alot to help us in all kinds of way) im greatful & proud to have a school that looks like a castle -_-!
WIll upload picture of the school some other day when im capable of taking pictures of the school and not get caught. ;O

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I DONT UNDERSTAND SPAMMMERSSSSS.
Or rather i dont understand bloggers who entertain spammers?.
I mean spammers's main objective when spamming is to make you look like a loser or some low-life freak OR they are just going out to make you angry and pissed off ruining your fine day.
WHAT FOR FALL FOR THEIR TRICKSSS?!
It makes sense right? just dont be bothered! People around the globe knows that spammers's rubbish aint true half of the time. So bloggers who's blog got spammed dont care just dont reply dont entertain them by replying their tags, instead of wasting time replying them. JUST SIT BACK AND LAUGH AT THEIR FOOLishness. Tag's are meant for keeping like some gift from other bloggers -.- so keep them. Its beautiful. LAUGHS.
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Light the bucktooth and his braces love the world ;) pictures up soon! i hope

2008-06-11T00:01:00.003+08:00

I'm sure most of us can remember vaguely how we got all excited about going to the Zoo when we were young of cos. A trip to the zoo right now at the age of sixteen seems to be more of a hike in the zoo, rather than sight-seeing. Really exhausted- its fun though.
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I LAG BEAUTY SLEEP.

Toss & turn like for a million times and still cant get to sleep.

When i finally dozed off, it feels as though im only half-asleep, you're still perfectly clear about whats happening around you. Im telling you thats gotta be one of the worst feeling you can ever imagine- wanting to sleep but you cant..Z!

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"The human population of the planet is approximately 6 billion and rising. As the population continues to increase, there is the fear of more and more strain on the environment, adequate food production, nations ability to provide, economies to grow and society to flourish. People will be fighting for basic needs. But is all this the case or are there other issues and causes that need to be considered as well?---humans should start limiting their birth rate, because our demands on food is way beyond mother earth's capability of providing. Its time we think about how are we goona save both mother earth and our asses. People will be fighting over food, and i mean FIGHT. Thats when money can do no shit. Who would choose money over their own survival?..

Some natural disasters like earthquakes and floods can often come at the least expected time. Others such as hurricanes and cyclones may be getting more severe. Typically, the poor are the worst hit as they have the least resources to cope and rebuild with.

Humans have destroyed more than 30 percent of the natural world since 1970.

SAVE EARTH, SAVE YOURSELF.

2008-05-31T18:43:00.001+08:00

2008-05-31T18:11:00.003+08:00

school holidays.
BORING.BORING.BORING.BORING.BORING.

- right now,it feels as though i've been on a long holiday longest holiday in fact.
It feels like i've strayed out of time & space and stoning at home everyday and everyday seems to be as long as a lifetime on earth. It makes sense right? or no? ZzZz

Most of the pictures are with beloveexxzxsxd jessie's beloveeezxzxxzd camera.
But then again, those pictures only show you the memorable moments, well you dont go around taking pictures of people feeeling bored or stoning at home ? do you? will post the pictures real soon.

2008-05-18T01:41:00.004+08:00

excessive or rapacious desire.
-horrendous emotions that often leads to evil doing

bad hair day. ssszzooo irritatingzx!
swollen feet(hurts like crap)
a hard strike on my self esteem( threw like another 100 poker chips)
horrible mid year results.

It was really so much of A-g-o-n-y, to actually get struck that hard. Such suffering & torment. It might not be any shit to most, but to me its really like casting your level 25 ulti skill on me. zooooo sad!

;(
why cant people be as lovely as animals?.

2008-05-14T22:15:00.005+08:00

A non-wordy post. very pictorial.
zooooo many pictures t post

the words part will come later.

its late now.

my harry potter book is waiting for mezzxs

tata world

2008-04-22T22:32:00.004+08:00

lethargic.

You will not be able to find any other blogs thats more deprived of life/without vitality.

I was feeling too sluggish to update me blog. Excuses like " i dont update becos i wanna keep readers anticipating for more" afterall good things are worth waiting for.

haha

Talking about waiting. Its really a word/emotion/action i hate to mention,think,speak or feel.

We wait because we wanna continue expecting something and we're looking forward to it.

Most people literally wait their whole life and get in return events that is lacking positive attributes. How sad is that?!

Being patient aint the key to success afterall.

see how it contradicts to Events+response=outcome?

ps. life is full of irony

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As you start gradually grow up, you get so emotionally attached to the word "growth"

Like you start to think you need to mature and stop doing silly things that people might define as "childish".

I think we should never restrict ourself in regardless of whatever we do, to me being a grown up person aint meaning you can't have fun like kids, do silly stuff like kids, make hell lot of noise (constructive noise i mean) Its just about being yourself, afterall there will be people who like you for who you are & not what you are trying to be.

Those who goes around branding others as childish they are the real immaure kids.

Get a life. :D

i pity you.

____________________________

Dont blame me for changing. Cos i never really felt that i change in anyway. Im still who i am months or years ago, bottom line is REFLECT.

_______________________________

mid years = screwed. So ill rather skip it.

_______________________________

When chances are within your grasp,catch it dont let it go..

im starting to feel lucky in relationship. and i wonder :DD

after so many years i've wasted.

KENJI,JESS,VICTORIA,EN,KEVIN,KIAN,EPH

STAN,ALVIN,IVY,JOHNNY,HAO

CHAR,ROW.

THEY SHOULD KNOW I LOVE THEM MORE THAN ANYTHING.

lots of love.

2008-04-17T15:59:00.000+08:00

I'll update once i've receive all the photos. (:

2008-03-11T01:51:00.003+08:00

sis tagged me in the quiz thingy
so no choice
gotta do it.

Rules of the game;Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged & list their names. No tag backs!

hurtful words from my mouth aint heartfelt words, though it often seem as though im really going all out to making someone feel like a loser. i apologise
I really love the people i love.
When i keep my mouth sealed up it aint because im feeling emotional or sentimental, its because i'm really killing my brain cells thinking hard.
I dont hide any thing from my dearest (char,sis & hao)
im short tempered, i cant stand taunting from others.
i cant tell certain people secrets because she's all my secrets are about.
i put in 100% effort into relationship/friendship & i always expect karma to be kind to me by giving me 100% in return.
I've got loads of softtoys in my room.
physical damages can never be as painful as emotional damages
i love what i do, i do what i love.

2008-03-02T01:18:00.010+08:00

I'll sum up all the little and big happenings from two weeks ago till today, and it will all be under one post. I apologize if its a little too rush. Cos im feeling rather lazy and lethargic.

lets see..

I'll start with my confessions. Its definitely not the ideal way of beginning your post.

I've not been studying at all for the approaching common test. The stress that drives and motivates me aint coming. In fact im still in the relax and chills state of mind. It would be the first and last time i begging mr/miss stress to come be my friend, ill welcome you with open arms and embrace you. Motivation start coming please, well at least before my N/o levels.

I understand nothing miss wan is talking about, what source base, structure,comparison questions and all sorts of strange alien rubbish talking about diplomacy. PS(someone has got to work on the monotonous tone its really becoming a soothing lullaby putting us into a deep slumber)
This would be the most vital and crucial. I'm becoming such an asshole recently, even i myself can't stand my own attitude. I get pissed off very easily and i often speak without thinking, i often have to shut myself up and reward myself with a tight slap and reflect on what i just said a moment ago. SELF CONTROL PS( char, im sorry that i blabber all the shit on you.)

I go home late, i sleep late & i wake up early. What the fcuk is wrong with me? Im such a MOFO

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The Leap Years, 29/feb (with char & row)

The story is about Li-Ann, a young Singaporean girl who meets her 'special someone' on 29 February. She decides to base her intuition on an Irish leap year tradition that no man will refuse any request of a lady and invites him out for a date. Together, they embark on a romantic journey that spans over 12 years, meeting only thrice in 12 years, on the leap year. -

Firstly, two thumbs up for raintree production. I had high hopes for this film! its like a singapore version of "ps iloveyou." only that it aint that tragic & its a rather English language film so you need to be able to interpret what is it all about. Its mainly flashback of li-ann's love story.

Its romantic and heart warming. support local movies, go catch it soon and give yourself a sweet treat this leap year! oh yea! one more thing they had loads of meaningful quotes from shakespear and other famous writers.

take the leap of faith! leap into love!

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VISUAL.

" a walk to remember."

they are all my first batch of nurses and doctors

"congrats alvin! last long with ivy!

2008-02-16T00:32:00.007+08:00

I'm not going to say sorry because i did not blog for nearly 2 weeks?

Its boring to start your post by saying sorry.

Typical. Zz

The hweeling/feel to update my blog is back.

& I've got plenty of content this time round.

chinese new year, valentine's day,comparing movies & school.

I've never blog with so much enthusiasm before.

Cut the small talks,Move on to the main topics.

Chinese new year.

Its the time of the year where i can ignore financial problems & buy new clothes.How nice is that?

Its also the time of the year where the weighing scale would be my greatest fear. Call me a bitch,i' monitor my weight and smell closely.

Finally its also the time of the year where you get to see your relatives- see all the dramatic changes in them. The older aint getting any younger obviously, the younger ones are getting older. This feeling is just so.. special, well i don't know how to put it in words. sorrow engulfs your heart seeing your granny getting older & she aint healthy.

I spend CNY slacking at void decks. I can't live without char, row sis & movies.

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VALENTINE's day

A special day for lovers.

It brings joy and laughter,

& agony to some.

They get emotionally sentimental either because they lost love or they never did had never fallen in love before or they're left on the shelve.

So when you're happily walking with someone you love hand in hand, do think about the less fortunate. Pity them cos valentine's day can really demoralize them to the extreme.

Well well, look on the bright side you can actaully celebrate it with your beloved friends! And trust me its still goona be very sweet.

I'll just blabber through- went to vivo, wanted to catch ps iloveyou,Full house, It sucks really not being able to watch it. stoned around vivo, though we just walk aimlessly around it was still rather entertaining.. although it was a screwed up valentine's day,nevertheless it was a
memorable one.

i've got great friends. im thankful for that.

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Cj 7,kunfu dunk, ah long & ps i love you.

kunfu dunk is boring, cj 7 is cute, ah long is amusing

ps iloveyou is a die die must watch/real tear jerker.

I'll just skp cj & kunfu.

Cos i dint really like either one.

Ahlong downgrades you, all the hokkien vocab.

its still nice though.

firstly, its not those action filled movie. DUH

well its just talking talking through out,

But the storylinel -planned out well,

suspense can be found,

its real touching & sweet.

Leaves you thinking "why is god so unfair towards lovers who're deeply in love with each other, you will wonder why love can drive people to do such wonderful/amazing things, you will ask yourself why is fate so cruel."

how can you miss such a good show?

im watching it again for sure.

char extended her hair.LAUGHS.

sis and i we're one of the first few who saw the new her.

2008-02-02T01:20:00.000+08:00

this is my blog.
ill post whatever i feel like posting.
and bitches out there, listen up
dont just read my blog and grab the content in it and tell others "i've got eefan's secret."
fuck off!
i wont bother posting my secrets here to let all these KPOs read.
so mind you, think before you act.

I'm not going to fool around during english lessons.
I'll do all my summarys with at least 15 points.
I'm never goona lift the whole passage and call it my answer.
I will memorize the whole dictionary.
& I promise to study for every tuesday's vocab test.

I was on my way to meet fook, It was than i noticed,or rather heard people of my age speaking in this strange-unsoothing english? its was rather awful, I'm not saying my english is superb but at least i can speak and write english that can be comprehended by beings.
Im still trying hard to "X" out singlish.
Ending sentences with "leh,la,lor" is really turning me off.
Its sounds kinda wrong" turning myself off?
& English is really super important, Its a must pass subject!
regardless whether Im taking "O" or "N" I wont be able to go to poly if i fail my english,needless to say JC.
This explains why dunman emphasize so much on english. So from now on, I'll
appreciate what the school is offering to help us improve in english instead of complaining all the time.
Ill need ingredients in english to further my studiessssss

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Earlier in my post i was talking whole loads of nonsense on how important english is.
IRONICALLY,I'm actually really really not paying attension during lit..
Honestly, I've lost interest in the subject?..
NO. to be precise i've totally no interest in the text we're reading now.
"kill a mocking bird" is really kiling me, Cos its just so boring.
really no joke. I wonder how did it managed to hit the top sellers and actually sold like what? 35million copies?
Man, the story actually revolves around 2 person, jem & scout? Like its neither a love,tragic nor comedy.
Cant find any romance or action in it. The whole book is literally talking about how they grow up what they do in their everyday life, & how much time they spend trying to figure out who the hell is boo radley. Its pointless. GRR! I mean if they were to add more variety of content to it its sure goona be a better book.
The teacher is also getting on me nervessss. Im not naming who the teacher is, there is sure to be some ass hole whos gonna report it.
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CNY around the corner,I've yet to buy all the new year clothes..
I dont know why,but this year i just aint in the mood to buy any new clothes.
you know dont have the "shopping feel"?
& i went to take a look at tops sold at bugis, they use to look nice & trendy,thats in the past of cos.
But now i find them yucks..
Skinnies with slippers and cardigan with multi colour stripes on it, is just so fugly now.
I'm becoming such a materialistic bitch.
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Its sad to know that my life is always revolving around couple of "C" it sucks.

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i wonder would female prefer smart male or good looking male?
its just a random question to lengthen my post.
whatever it is.

STUDY HARD EEFAN. & i miss kenji. he called me just now!
Oh i wanna watch movieeeee! anybody? :D

2008-01-26T21:21:00.000+08:00

My sister joey likes to call me spastic & nerdy/i wonder why

Im sorry for not updating, im sorry ive been a bad kid these days..

Cos im literally not paying attension in class,Not attending CCA & i've been staying up till dawn.

lord budddaaa forgive me.

I owe MR sung like a million thanks?.. he's trying to keep me in PA by begging me to attend morning duties.

& im really touched when confronted me to remind me to keep my attendance at 75%.

actions really speaks louder than words.

Ill just cut long words short.

Flag day today,Kinda demoralizing..the weather aint anywhere at our side..

It was really hard to open up to the public, Like go to them and ask if they would like to donate.

some would give you that "wtf face"

others would ignore. PS. you will really feel like stuffing the tin in their faces. really

I finally understand the pain students have to go through.

Oh,but there's still nice humans around with that heart of compassion whos more than willing to donate.

Even if its like few cents,it goes a long way to help the poor. :)

Did i mention why im so not focus in class?..

its simple, my classmates are just too funny, they'll always be cracking lame jokes.

But its really those ROFL type. & hakim actually brought poker cards to play, i mean when you actaully have so much distraction how on earth are you goona study tioo bo?!

i really need help in physicssss.
mamaaaa pundeh, i cant find moments to sit down to actually study law of moments. HELP.

Oh one more thing, Im gonna pick up malay as my second MT if possible.

Cos like this ill be able to click with my muslim friends & its cool.

But ill need to really work on my eng still.

COS I SCREWED UP MY ORAL PRESENTATION!

HOW NICE.

i really missss cccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccc. :(

LOADS OF PICTURE TO UPLOAD.

2008-01-21T19:44:00.000+08:00

Now that jones gone, i've got nothing to look forward to both after school & before..
nothing seems to be working fine for me.. Zzz
This really suck.
gotta sort out my priority,i am getting troubled by
unnecessary matters, that should be at the bottom of my trouble list.
dreadful. =(

2008-01-15T19:35:00.000+08:00

School's been such a drag these days.
loads of homework, so little time.. remedials&test makes it worst.
really nothing much to post about, my blog is so super dead.

yes i love, i love.
sadly.

2008-01-06T01:48:00.000+08:00

hello blog!

sorry i did'nt keep my promise,my promise about blogging on alternative days.

haha, i've been rather lazy to post,besides life in school is just repeating itself everyday.

so naturally i'll have nothing intresting to post about.

Whatever the case is i'll just post anything that pops into my mind..

Been eating alot this few days,guess my weight is off the weighing scale already.

& i can see clearly that i'm really gaining like 2kilos. omFG.

i just freaking hate e idea of being fat,not trying to discriminate anyone by the way

But i kinda pity "bigger size human" I mean some of them not all,they get isolated from the normal humans just because they look unattractive. So dont be mean to fat people. :)

okay where was i?..

Oh,i was talking about eating alot this few days..

its goona be my new "passion" & i am definitely enjoying my life to the fullest..

having fun in school,having fun outside,having fun studying.

life was never better.'

& i know what was the cause of my depression,yada yada blah blah.

its youuuuuuuuuuuu..argghhhhh.

he told me her mother was a cleaner.

i just cant....

2008-01-02T15:22:00.000+08:00

Back to school after 2 months,Find it hard to cope with school, i found it hard to cope with the enviroment,the people all the changes.. Zzz !
So it feels better to just keep as silent as possible.
its gonna take me sometime i guess,

2007-12-30T23:32:00.000+08:00

New year is around the corner,and i'm gald that the last few months of 2007 ended swiftly & sweetly.

what more can i ask for ?.. Its been a rather fruitful year, Friendship,studies & financial issues all of those i mentioned kinda "blossomed" well. *Laughs.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

i'll remember to show my expression of gratitude towards people around me :)

Been spending ALOT of money recently..

Movies,Pool & Pub.

Especially pool, The prices are ranged from $5per hour to $15per hour..all depends on the table & the service

*stuned.

We can't possibly just play for an hour can we? In an hour the most we can play is just like two sets?..Which is
pathetically little.. We approximately burned 70 bucks on pool.

& that excludes the amount of money spent in pubs. -_-

Wonder how am i goona survive!

i've also been drinking excessively almost every night.. My liver is gonna be burnt away so soon.

picked up a new theory, the "drink your trouble away" & "nightclubs & pubs= Fun"

well, im not going to care about what other humans might say, who cares if im underage to go into a nightclub,

as long as i live by my principals & theory of living life to fullest,doing what i wanna do & have fun while doing it, (non- illegal stuff of cos.)

So now, my wallet is this > ____ slim & its got a big hole on it.

Let the pictures do the talking. *beloww~

*munhao the kumlan.

Its super humorous

*Ong & his cue

♥FROSTER's (ALL IN)♥

countdown,!!

PARTY!~~~ WHAHAHA

enjoy!

2007-12-27T14:29:00.000+08:00

Selling my k5. (good condition)

Its green. Im craving

want it so badly..

:D

2007-12-27T14:25:00.001+08:00

Enjoy

2007-12-25T15:10:00.000+08:00

merry x'mas everyone!
stay happy & pray that all your wishes come true..
Wishlist is still as long as before.
i actually forgotten when was the last time i received a xmas present.. definetly not last year, im pretty sure because last xmas
my aunt told me something i won't forget she said that im old already won't be needing any xmas present.
Yawnsss.* So i'm just hoping this year at least a quarter of my wishlist will be a wish come true..
This is one strange xmas,no plans at all & the feel just aint there..Well it gonna be over soon xmas i mean
so yea,forget it.. In the years to come i'm hoping for a more fun filled xmas. :)

My eyelids will be so heavy when its late at night" Thats a "phenomenon' ill experince last time..
But for now,my eyelids will be wideopen even if its minutes till dawn..
Sleeping pills = my good friend
Wonder how on earth will i be able to sleep on the eve of school's reopen-ing
Its gona be a "thrilling" night >.<

OH! guesss whattt, i've finally found the lime green ear piece! *Scream & yell!

Its green! omgzszszssss fetish for green
ecstatic,joyful,state of ecstasy AHAHA!
been looking for it for ages.. -_-
what adds to the ecstatic,ecstasy feeling is that the earpiece aint as expensive as i thought it would be!
Its a real good deal. :D

ok think thats about it

im actually not happy without you..zz
BYE 小龍女

2007-12-22T02:25:00.000+08:00

hello!
decided to just update Again,Cos i can't sleep.. Or rather..
i don't feel like sleeping.
So yea.

Been dazzled or should i say amazed by the love shared between..
杨过 & 小龍女
Though its fictional & no such thing ever happened before, but can you imgine if it was true..
Like it aint any fiction but a biography of this two lovers!
Its so gonna touch hearts of many i think & perhaps it might even change the mentality of people who think love is something to be messed around with,people who think love's just about finding yourself a hot/pretty/handsome
companion, I'm not trying to be some doctor love or something.. I'm here blogging about all this shit for one purpose..
Im sincerely trying to convey the message to people out that (you know who ) who aint giving a damn about what love's true meaning is,if lust is what you're feeling go geylang or something la,dickhead.

Well well, im drifting of my main topic! argh,
okay just a brief description about the story between 杨过 & 小龍女
Yang Guo became entangled in a romantic relationship with his martial arts master, Xiaolongnü. The existence of such master-apprentice relationships is highly taboo in Confucian Chinese society, and both parties suffered tremendously pursuing their love. Yang Guo's own impulsive personality and his lack of respect for other senior martial artists only made the matter worse. After numerous tribulations, the pair was separated for 16 years. Yang Guo matured significantly by the separation, and upon reunion they eventually overcame the pressure and their love was accepted. The loyalty and daring attitudes of both Yang Guo and Xiaolongnü are the primary features of the story.

They suffered tremendously just to pursue love,after being separated for 16 years,they are still deeply in love with each other! Wow..
16 years! imagine..is it even possible? haha
against all odds and they still can stay so faithful.
how i wish i can actaully find a girl like 小龍女.
-.-
she'll be the biggest Christmas present ;)

2007-12-21T01:20:00.000+08:00

Im going to cultivate this habit of blogging everyday or maybe once in 2 days or something,cos i just don't like the writing "dairy" habit.. Well at least i did try,I thought it would be better than blogging cos you can write all your "little secrets" It turns out so boring,like no tagboard nothing..In other words its very "dead"

Who would choose to swim on a rainy day?..
the four retards in the picture had nothing better to do in their life,that they decided to do something stupid.. swim on a rainy day.. The wind out there is enough to make your hands & feets numb & yet the four mindless freak went for a dip!
Well, part of the reason was because we wanted to "act cool".. Lol
the pool was deserted~ so was kinda making alot of noise,but certainly did have fun,
But really the water was so cold that four of us were sneeezeee-ing all the way till home.

Omg. Just thinking about having so many good friends of mine
graduating this year is really..
i dont know how should i feel?..
Like happy for them or what?..
i think heart-aching is the word, like your heart sank to the bottom of the ocean.
Okay they might be mischievous & playful, But they're really those type of friends that won't show you any "attitude" even at their foulest mood,They're the type that will go all the way out just to help you,They're the type that will never let you feel left out at any single moment,They're the type that will treat you to a scrumptious meal when they're feeling rich,They're the type that will seek you out to tell you every single nasty habit of yours that they dislike & they want you to change.
Tell me.. what's this call?.
Brotherhood. im goona miss them.
really ;(

First & foremost
thankieee youuuu for this four years of fun..
Yes we can keep in contact ..but really i find it abit impossible cos we're gonna be very busy with our own stuff..so yea Im just gonna give my thanks in my post ;D

Leong Yong Hao : hao ah,! thanks for all those crap ! you sure know how to brighten up people's life with your act blurness and nonsense! Take good care of your face.. i wont want to see you mor peng next time. & for goodness sake stop smoking, & if can remove all those fugly tatoo all over your body! you're filling up more than half your body with tatoo. Its not nice!

Wong Mei ling : ling jieeee, thanks for being such a nice elder sister!im going to miss all the "doting" HAHA, thanks for telling me what to do when im facing ups & down, oh! i'll remember all your secrets forever, promise to keep mine sealed up okay! All the best in your hair dressing!
arigato jie!

EPH MAH : oh first of all! love youuu plenntyyy! hah.. you're always the noisy & irratating one
But you're the main source of life! without you its gonna be so dead, no joke! & last long with siqi okay! Becareful when you get your bike in the near future! gonna miss your yelling and messing around,finally thanks for being the one that always "draw" the police to us with your messing around.. always getting screen & all! haha goona miss those moments.

Alexandra lim : last long with mandy!.. play less maple, get a new pair of specs, you're going "pa jiao" dont put anymore tatoo -.-
remain steady! thanks boon!

Zhaowei & fookchai : becareful okay dudes.. you guys should know what i mean..
Dont get into trouble! take good care of yourselves! you guys-smart, so go on with studies!
fookchai thanks for being the "tao' when i was sec one, -.-
zhaowei thanks for all the basketball games & maple ks war.
you're one steady shit.

Kenji the fatty : cut down on your weight,! im goona miss you the MOST! three years lei!
come back soon okay... ill remember all the stupid stuff we did in the pool..

thats about it..
bye!

2007-12-20T01:47:00.000+08:00

SunSHINE!,Rainbow!
smile & be happy
just snap out of that Emo shit!

2007-12-17T22:32:00.000+08:00

& Its raining again..

Though i like rainy weather,It can be a real turn off sometime.

It restrains your activity to nearly zero.. Outdoor activity obviously gotta be canceled.

So ended up stoning at home..

Oh & met up with yichew for dinner & saw this ipod nano (hotpink) real nice..

4gb-$348

Im saving up for it! haha.. but sadly im still stuck with my samsung k5

SOooO im looking for a buyer.. selling k5/good condition with minor scratches..

leave you offers!

City link with *newurban's spokesperson

Got our havanas& that large bag..

im really feeling so lazy right now..

fingers- so heavy, hardly can type.

*spokesman.

ZzzZ

what can i say..?

who ask you aries, dio bo..

try harder!

Actions= louder than words.

2007-12-15T22:28:00.000+08:00

Yos lovely blog.
Freaking woke up at 3 today with one of my eye bloodshot red..
Had rather horrible hangovers this morning.. It totally ruins my day..
It went on for nearly the whole day can! Headaches & nausea..Grins.
Below is the report for my astrology sign..
Star found this site,haha kinda cool..

Prepared for eefan
born April 5, 1992
DAY-SIGN: 5-Eagle (Maya: 5-Men) YEAR: South-6 (Tikal System)
13-DAY PERIOD: 1-Monkey (Maya: 1-Chuen)
NIGHT LORD: 4
VENUS PHASE: Morning Star

Eagle: You like to be a free spirit. You would probably just take-off for parts unknown but you usually have some complex relationship issues to deal with, so you don't. But you like time alone and tend to keep a good distance from most people. You have your own set of rules in life that has developed from your own unique perspective on things and you tend to take an experimental approach to many areas of your life. At worst, you can become too self-involved, at best, you are a person who pioneers changes and furthers new developments in the social world.
Many persons born under this day-sign are noted for their intellect. Frequently Eagle types have an interest in, or background in, philosophy or science, or the more technical aspects of their chosen field. You are probably a perfectionist and your exacting, critical mind needs challenges. Making plans and layouts may be particularly appealing to you. You have a strong intellect but you also tend to think in rigid patterns. As a result, you may be stubborn and have difficulties breaking bad habits.
Oddly enough, there is an escapist side to you. This may be simply a lazy streak, or at worst, drug or alcohol abuse. On a more positive level, you may be concerned with making the world a better place and you only appear to be an escapist to others. The creation of a fantasy, an escape from society or a personal journey within -- these are things that appeal to you on a deep level. Perhaps this is your way to simulate the high, soaring flights of an eagle.
You are probably very popular and well-liked, which is kind of interesting since you tend to bend the rules frequently. One thing you find uncomfortable is competition. You will compete when necessary, and you can be very serious about such things, but you usually try to avoid it. Competition with yourself is more your style and has probably become a pattern in your life.
In relationship matters you can be contradictory. You are very interested in relationships and, in order to explore them, will make life choices that compromise your free-wheeling instincts. Since you are a great believer in freedom, you stress this principle not only for yourself, but also for your partners or friends, and are therefore willing to break with convention in living situations.

Christmas is soo near!..
& festive seasons always give me the craving to go on shopping spree & ya i know it does'nt sound like any other normal guys..
But really i've loads to buy! For myself & others.
christmas presents for my beloved friends. HA, they will be so touched.
& the biggest problem would be how on earth do i find so much money! ARGH.
Gotta push aside all my worries & start thinking about some positive stuff..
If i worry too much i'll age twice as fast as normal people would.. Zzz
But life's just too much of ups & down for me,What can i do ?..

Its so vague..
Even though all i want for christmas is you..

2007-12-11T00:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday.

The weather was horrible. Rain,Stop & this nonsense goes on & off for the whole day!

Yesterday was the day that i was so Looking forward to..And the weather ruin it!

What really spoils the mood more than the weather was when your friends Pangseh you/Tua you! & somemore those last minute type.. And they try to make up stupid stories or reasons & actually expect you to buy it..

Honestly,i DETEST such people..be it my friends or anyone i know,it may sound like im harsh but really,Sabotaging really pissesss the crap out of me. =(

& so intial plan was to exercise our ass off by cycling in pasir ris park, Due to the lack of people..

We ended up in escape theme park..Had loads of fun,there were only three of us,so it was rather

inconvenient.. Star actually dare to try inverter! My godzzzsss! Nothing freaks me out than being hanged upside down!.. Well at least im not alone,joreen also dont dare.. TEEHEE.

Had subway with star & brandon, walked home,talk cock on the way home,laugh my ass off ,bath,online,chat,sleep.

2 days ago

Went all the way to newton to attend En's sister wedding!

bryan wanted to come along,but he said he can't find any clothes..& he said he looked rather strange in formal! HAHA..

En and i was thinking how would he look like in formal!

AHAH..

Went over to crossfire in hoping to zak!

in the end.. dint even do the quest,so gave up half way through. =(

VITASOY LA HOR.

school was filled with delights i

played daytime away & dreamed away nights.

But soon,darkness starts to set in My bright world had turned into concrete and tin.

there are days when i just want to break down & howl To just give up completely to throw in the towel but i hold my head high and push my way through. I have too much to give and so much to do..

AND i make a vow that though it'll be hard.

i'll go on with a smile and play every card.

i'll give all i can help others and love.

no matter what happens, life will bloom again.

and the strength i dont have will come from above.

2007-12-07T23:20:00.000+08:00

My blog...
So dead,grins.
Time to liven it up with a short post :D
Its December already, Well looking forward to
Christmas,though there aint any plans to go anywhere yet.
Its been a year with plenty of ups & down, sometimes I feel that it's too much for me to take,
Lucky me! i've got people around me to give me a helping hand when i fall, Be jealous! haha
Friends -god's gift,I'll do all i can to treasure them. THANKIEE YOUU!

Been mapling this few days,i actually spent alot of time on my smellypeanut,sadly its gone already, sold it ;D
Oh yea, Golden compass was great,the ice bears were so cool. Its a must watch!
wallet now only got like 5 dollars left, what adds on to my lack of money stress-tmr!
john's sis wedding! how to go! 5 bucks! Shit.

the rainy weather this few weeks been rather.. Not sure what word to use to describe this feeling.? Soothing i think..
such weather would be ideal for.. cycling! thats what we're plannning to do this sunday!
Woah, excited!
TEE HEE,BAH,TSK TSk. -_-

I have motivation! Great surge of energy? or should i say thirst ?
thirst to prove my value,
to friends,love ones,classmates,teachers..
Dont know if this creepy feeling is positive or not.
It should be fine as long as i dont do anything stupid right?
haha,ok..
Oh yea, gotta learn how to manage time..
my time management skill sucks.

ive been wondering..
How will ordinary people react when their strongest desire,biggest wish wont ever come true..
because of something call "its destined to be like that..blah blah.
Will they still crave for it ? Hmm.
thought provoking,to me at least.

Live each day to it fullest! Be happy ;)

Konayuki レミオロメン (ichi rittoru no namida)

2007-12-06T13:14:00.001+08:00

Enjoy!
inspire!

2007-12-02T23:21:00.000+08:00

HEllO BLOG!

Sorry for not updating.

Been very Busy with maple! & watching alot of japanese dramas!..

Let me introduce you people to one real amazing/addictive/tear jerking..

Its call "ONE LITRE OF TEARS"aka (Ichi Rittoru no Namida)

15-year-old Ikeuchi Aya was an ordinary girl, the daughter of a family who works at a tofu shop, and a soon-to-be high schooler. However, odd things have been happening to Aya lately. She has been falling down often and walks strange. Her mother, Shioka, takes Aya to see the doctor, and he informs Shioka that Aya has spinocerebellar degeneration - a terrible disease where the cerebellum of the brain gradually deteriorates to the point where the victim cannot walk, speak, write, or eat. A cruel disease, as it does not affect the mind in the least. How will Aya react when told about her disease? And how will Aya live from now on?This beautifully moving drama is based on the real-life struggles of a 15-year-old girl named Aya who suffered from an incurable disease, but lived life to the fullest until her death at 25. The script is based on the diary Aya kept writing until she could no longer hold a pen. The book that later followed entitled "One Litre of Tears" has sold over 1.1 million copies in Japan alone.Aya's only wish was "to live." REAL TOUCHING. I CRIED WHILE WATCHING IT. REALLY =(

this drama sort of gives me the drive to find a cure for this disease. So i might consider my future job..hmm neurologist.!

ive thought countless time how this disease shattered my life.but..this is reality no matter how sad, i cant escape it no matter how much i cry.
i cant return to the past no matter how much i want to recapture it. If thats the case,i must start loving myself now for who i am. Because there are so many things that i realized first time since i become affected..like what a blessing is just to have your family around you, or the warmth of a friend's touch when they lend a hand.
or how extremely fortunate you are just to be healthy. Not all was lost just because i was ill.. This body of mine is me.. Ive decided to live with pride.but from now on i've decide to find light in every step i take.! by aya

2007-11-28T01:43:00.000+08:00

Hi blog!

Im so broke,and what makes my life more miserable is the fact that i still need to buy so many items like flip flops,t shirts & many more! & christmas is around the corner!

grr.. Teach me how to not be spendthrift :(

Flew over to Far East with star, In hope of finding joreen a perfect and practical birthday present..But sadly we did not get anything for her,cos there was just too many "perfect & practical" items for us to choose from... Ranging from clothes to healthcare products.. and we were a little bit lack of cash,well i should say not exactly lack of cash la is just that the items we found that were perfect for her were abit off budget. SAD CAN. So we ended up walking from far east to herens,than to wisma again. Tess came over to look for us after her work and we continued to shop around hoping to find the present again -.-! My whole post is revolving around joreen's present.. Zzz.. I shall not mention anything about people pissing the crap out of me TODAY!..
Below are just some picture we took at far east to kill time?
EnjOYYY..

3 days ago!

It was waiyan's birthday! She invited us over to semei for her birthday bbQ~

So went over to semei with wm,star & geral

And you cant believe what we got her.. Panty & pads! packed nicely in a box!

EH we spent nearly 30 plus just to buy panty & pads okay.

I bet waiyan will love us even more after her birthday!

Was rather fun despite the rainy weather, We could'nt do much partly because of the rain the & maybe its beacuse we dont know the poeple there?..

The atmosphere was rather strange.. Or should i say rather unfamiliar. ah whatever.

Oh yea the food was magnificent i tell you! & you know why ? its because i was the one doing the bbqing. -.-

*ignore im being random.

being such a nice loving,friendly guy ..
i've found myself a new friend!Check out my super uber cute friend.

PEOPLE SAY HI TO EUNICE!

she is super adorableeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

But a little bit too shy!

she is cute right! WAHAHA, Be jealous!

Dad & his daughters

light ,star

BEING UNGLAM.

VITASOYSSSSSSS

OFF TO BED~

2007-11-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

Enchanted was Thumbs up!.

it was really great,like not totally fairy tale type of movie.
So guys who dont appreciate this kind off fantasy type of movie would still enjoy it.
fairytale world was linked up with reality! real cool.. ;D
Oh yea, the songs in the show was real sweet.
*ive been dreaming of a true love's kiss*

Know what! i know im very "sua ku"
but its really the first time i saw this machine in the toilet.
they sell condom! $3 for a strawberry flavour. WAHAHaA
Cool can!

;)
She got home safe & sound,did not get rape -.-
Outbreak! HAHA.

Had pastamania for lunch~
its the first time i ate so much for lunch,baked rice,soup,potato salad!
its alot you know.
& i've been spending money like ..WOAH.
so im broke now.. Very broke now. =(
help.

THis is uber cute! HA

Turkish ice cream,it was not bad, 5 bucks for entertainment ! Lol.
isit nice miss star? ;D

the crocodile's shirt & jacket..SO nice but its way too ex ;(

TATA!

2007-11-20T14:57:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired of being the one that never quit trying,Yes Yes our elders reprimanded us because we gave up too easily.
i mean like certain stuff is really not worth giving up after trying so hard for,But when you're face to face with scenarios that obviously tells you that no matter how much you try it will always turn out the same,You put in all your effort and you were praying all will be paid off,but instead of achievements you got dissapointments. & i wonder is this really what they call fairness? im not trying to be emo or something,im just putting my feelings into words.

Snap out of that emo shit! reality check! Ok good news, 4th job advancement is out
& i'm lackin like 16 levels! yAY time to rejoice -.-
I wont be like others who complain about how boring holidays can be,although i did complain in the previous post.Cos i've learn to live life to the fullest, oh im so lame.
OH YEA! peeps who went for camp: raymond sent me copy of all the photos,if you want ill sent it to you!

Random stuff.
And it starts in my toes,Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I always know That you make me smile Please stay for a while nowJust take your time Wherever you go.

I've been such an ass.. Forgive me ;(
i've been neglecting my family & relatives,Never attend all the gathering thingy & i feel real bad. & i've been stuck,i mean like im not decisive enough..
Truth is, i always hate it when i have to choose, i dont like the feeling of having like two stuff & i have to pick one,i get real stressedddd outttt.
;(
any wise words?

Let me light up your sky,let me tell you why i would die for you.

2007-11-18T21:37:00.000+08:00

Bless those souls who were killed in the flood.
2000 over dead & deathrate is still increasing.

I'll update all happenings in just one post ;D

TODAy

Went over to this temple with my uncle & parents to look for a "place" for my granny.

The weather was freaking hot,while the rest were busy with their own stuff, i found myself a comfy spot & sat there to enjoy the aircon~
okay, i know this is real random.

Met up with star for dinner, & bought some fire cracker & we crackered all around tmart
-.-

everything went well at first, than suddenly star became so strange.

really very strange.

YESTERDAY

star wanted to cut hair yesterday,So being such a nice person i am..

i pei her go.. -.- Oh ya rowena went too.
& ya her new hairstyle was perfect, very nice (:

Below are just some random pictures taken throughout the last few days.

2007-11-13T21:24:00.000+08:00

3G CLASS CHALET 2007!

Let the pictures do the talking.

This few boys missed many years of childhood.They did not know what a bed was , let alone slept on it.

This was the only entertainment before bbq starts,

twister!

You see why yeo did not allow us to play twister with girls?

FINALY! BBQ~

This is the most important part cos im incharge of the food.

& i know it tasted great. LOVE ME 3G.

NEXT UP..
RANDOM PICTURES.

click 5.

WAk REMPIT.

HIGHLIGHTS.

Its cute (:

star!,thanks for the drink

PICTURE OF THE DAY!

star,special in everyway (:

there you go!,

my real long post, this chalet is fun really.though we really did not do much.

but i felt very happy,even under circumstances like" there is no bed for us to sleep on.

cleared all my doubts with star. Everything will be fine soon.

its a promise.

& oh yea, we walked around the whole of downtown without sleeping at all!

drink more liang teh eh!.

2007-11-12T00:59:00.000+08:00

Town,with chen,wm,bryan,chew,zhicong,tiff,cheng ce,ray.

its was the long anticipated outing!

there was dissapointment when matt.. did not turn up!

cos someone is in love. Watched game plan AGAIN, cos the rest of the available shows are either nc16 or m18. WHATEVER.

im really not in mood for posting, sorry.

Ray,thanks for telling whats lust.

VIc,thanks for helping me solve the puzzle -.-

Star!,sorry for all the shit!

im really sick & tired of everything!..

im sick of those people saying what "im ahbeng"

Im not. really

im sick of being so sick of everything.

Im so sick of being the outcast.

Im so sick of being the loud & noisy clown.

Im sooooooooo sick of being so emo.

Im so sick of keeping everything bottled up inside.it feels like crap.

2007-11-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

what can i do now?

will sorry change anything.?

someone,anyone?

我不配.

应该体贴的感觉我没给

2007-11-07T14:17:00.000+08:00

BE JEALOUS! JAYS 8th ULBUM!
RATING: 9 out of 10
no joking ! its real nice,perhaps one of the best? Its worth the money!

Bags,bags & more bags!

A presentation talking about the harmful effects of smoking. -.-

viceroys & marlboro LOL.

Its been our home for 3 days 2 nights.Very lovely place indeed.

Back from camp! Two thumbs up for the camp organizers!

At first,We were not very willing to go for the camp basically because the numbers were
pathetic.

I always thought..
more peeps= more fun <--- WRONG!

BUT! it was a misconception of mine.

Truth is, more peeps=less food,less space,longer
queue for toilets,less fun.

We exchanged So many weird glances with the facilitators(whatever the spelling is) at first,cos obviously we still dont know them.

After playing some of those ice breaking games i kinda get to know them better & found out that they're a bunch of really fun people, and they're sort of cool in their own ways.

Our team bonded almost instanly & with the help of OUR facilitators (ray&zhi cong), we got along even better. ha!

initially, i just went for the camp because i wanted to kill some time,But it seems to me that i've not only spent my three days away,i've brought back so much memorys,brought back experience from lessons i've learned & i dare say most of us grew up :) well, not alot though.

overall, its one hell of a camp! & i dont mind going for another 3 days ;)

AS for now im feeling down ;(

i need a job!
i need lessons on how to maintain my emotions.
i need lessons on how to grow up faster.
i need lessons on how to get motivated & get my ass moving.
i need lessons on maths.
i need lessons on how to be less sentimental.
i need lessons that teach me whats the difference between love & infatuation
isit just simply A foolish, unreasoning, or extravagant passion or attraction.?
i need answers! SOMEONE,ANYONE
SIGH ;(((

2007-10-29T17:10:00.000+08:00

cheong's birthday ice cream. yeo paid for it ;D
topless 5!

trying to get coconut. -.-

I can't remember when did this took place,think it was rather long ago,
Sorry for not posting. Cos i'm just to lazy to do so.
all i can remember about that day was that the bunch of us,kenji,en,brandon,kevin & myself were slacking in the long kang. & consume like 3 coconuts pluck-ed from the trees nearby.
tasted rather good ;D

im tired :(
i've been getting more & more short temper-ed these few days.
moodless for almost everything, & i can't seem to really find out whats bothering me.
Even swimming at kenji's place seem to me like its .. ZZZ
help! lol.
perhaps i'm just thinking too much.
snap of it!
i shall not waste my the rest of my holidays stoning & rotting.
WHATEVER!

2007-10-18T23:13:00.000+08:00

SUP blog!
guess what? i've got my results back? well,not all actually..
Mostly.
It was horrible.. i guess? haha.
I wont really be bothering much about my results anymore, cos i'm already in a semi holiday mood. I'm just hoping to go up to sec 4 & re-focus on my studies. Besides mum & dad aint nagging at me about my results, even though i failed like 3 ! cos they "think" i put in effort for my EOYs. HEY it ain't easy to win their praise you know :D

Darn! i'm still not getting enough of DOTA, even after playing like 5 games non-stop!
talk about being addicted to games ;P
Blame it on those dumb guys with their invention of dota. LOL!
It seems to me that guys nowdays are more "in to" games than "in to" what they were supposed to be going gaga over in the first place.. HA

school is so sucky that it suck this big __________
its really boring & plus the humid weather! man i hate school.
at least akatsuki peeps were in school. to brighten up my day ! (:

2007-10-06T00:01:00.000+08:00

this is stupid ..i wont bother to comment on it.

oh...& this is on khairi birthday. sure did had loads of fun.

& this is just some random pictures showing how hard i've been mugging

wahaha

& this picture was snapped today.. real stupid i think, but its rather sweet dont ya think so.lol

with math's stupid handsign effect.

Hey NARUTO FANS! pardon me for being such a goon!!

BUT! naruto shipuudenn 37,38,39 is out! i actually did not know till i went to some random comic shop to check out the price of psp. & shock,stun was i feeling.

well perhaps a lil bit of sadness.. cos' i'm sort of facing some personal financial problems.. so these 3 books that cost 15 bucks in total would actually be a huge sum of money to me. Any kind soul can get it for me ? :D

oh hi blog.. are you happy i'm posting ?!. i know you are ;)

I've been so stressful over EOYs! studying everyday and it really feels like crap.

& it seems that i've forgotten the feeling of playing my guts out.

what made my life more miserable was those lame stuff happening at school.

haha anyway i wont be bothered with it.

& my main point was just to let kz know that nothing had actually changed, i wont let years of friendship go into the bin just like that,No way! you're great friend. & i'm super duper sorry kz!

SORRY ;D p.s NORMAL EH!

and oh! i mastered my smack :D WOAH! it sure feels good.

you know the pain i have to go through just to master it! blister on my fingers & feets!

fianlly! 3 EOYs paper down ! ... like another 10 million to go.......................

zzz till here!

2007-09-29T00:55:00.000+08:00

AKATSUKI Brotherhood

i'm back! My blog seems as dead as before. haha

never mind who cares,is for me to post happenings & my thoughts not for people to know what im doing in my typical teen life..

like i said in the previous line its my teen life,so i'll make sure i make full use of my time,

like for example.. In english lessons, instead of sleeping or just staring into space.. I actually figured out that if i could sit with hafiqal & En every english lessons my lifespan would be doubled, its really laugh my ass off when you're sitting with them.. well,thats hafiqal so what else can you expect from him besides dirty jokes about ella or punitent?

i'm really loving my everyday life now,even though is school,tution,study sort of life..

i can actually find loads of joy in doing such activities that normal students would rather call boring shit. These study thingy can really be fun,like you sit with your buds in any fast food chain & just mug for few hours after that we can have all the fun we want, like take today as an example after mugging for like 2hrs, the whole group of us ended up playing ice & water in the nearby park. & whats more? yeo mummy makes life better for all of us,by getting us drinks & finding us a perfect spot for mugging... So its just a matter of how you actually think about it, so peeps change your point of view ;D

& i really miss my old buds. ;D

A big thank you for miss MEAN for keeping me company when i'm bored. ;D

(p.s that previous line will sure melt miss mean's heart,afterall its me saying thank you) JK!

2007-09-23T22:31:00.000+08:00

Finally i've manage to cropped up some time for my blog. Its been left there to rot for nearly a week or so? haha
sorry,been really busy with mugging for my finals,mugging very hard lol
studying till late at night almost everyday,really believe it or not ;D

I spent my sundays in yeo mummy's church mugging again. lol,
Well at least that area sells good food =D
& i mean real good! munchy donut ! wow.. we waited for nearly half hour,but the donuts were really worth the wait..REALLY WORTH THE WAIT.! the oreo donut..WOW.

Why am I not feeling the way I'm suppose to feel? Why this... Feeling of confusion instead of happiness..?
& cheong! wuhan trip has change no shit,i did not undergo any extreme change at all. You're thinking too much.
Off to bed peeps.
i'm in love with my life.

2007-09-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

hey people sorry about delaying the post for like weeeks...

cos i'm simply too lazy,and besides EOYs are round the corner wont be using the computer much. so pardon me.

i was back from wuhan on 9th. The trip there was just amazing,really both wuhan & the people over there. Their over enthu attitude towards us guest made us felt warmly welcomed.

i've learnt so much in the 9 days trip,esp the 3 days in Quo Dao Quan school. We were ask to note down on the difference between singapore's education system & china's. & got to know a few china friends.

im not gonna go on. im sleepy.

imissswuhan!

2007-08-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

S.H.IT shi- ter

LU xiao yu, ye xiang lun!

hey blog .! sorry for not updating! real busy with common test.

& so will be flying off on sat! pardon me for not posting.

CYA!

2007-08-18T23:29:00.000+08:00

I'm back YES YES YES!
& crap i'm having stomach ache,real bad one in fact.haiyo
Its kenji's birthday celebration!Went to all those top haunted spots in singapore a real creepy way to celebrate ones birthday.
& ya the shitty part is when i slip and fell cos it is just so sliperrryy & my slippers got 0 friction.
._.
I would give a 3 out of 5 star rating for the outing today its real crappy actually.

8 more days to common test,i'm starting to really feel the stressed out atmosphere in my class.
whatever the case is at least i'm starting to get motivated :D
i've got this feeling that tells me i'm gonna screw my up coming CT & the feeling is real irratating.
And when things go from bad to worse,i often feel like i'm the cause for all of it.
& of cos alot of happenings in my daily life often ends up going from bad to worst VERY!. obviously its really hard to be not so emo?ahah
recently i found out that if i expected lesser from people,it would mean there will be less disapointment,with lesser disapointment things in life won't go from bad to worst?
Hmm..lets hope i'm right.

I feel so fever-ish, help!
OH YA! bu nen shuo de mimi is a must watch!
its real sweet,practically everything is perfect!
❤

you made me believe in you once again, which I really shouldn't at all.
dont deny your feelings FAN.!

2007-08-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

Edited by rowena :)

Its nearly a week since i last blogged. Loads of Fun you know!

I mean national day & tess's IT map thingy.

Man! i really, really wasted my 4 days. & back to the boring life of a teen..

who wants nothing more than getting out of teenage life -.-

well, look on the bright side of life? going to school is at least better than rotting at home right? haha

Its saturday ! and i never dread it so much before..its definitely one of the crap-iest saturday! T.T

Exams closing in.. >.<>

im so gonna start muggginggg.. dont sound quite like me hor?

ah.

i'll just cut short my post cos its really troublesome to type every single detail down.

okay,NATIONAL DAY.. Went over to marina to meet up with chew,wm & rowena.

In the END, toasted Trip went over to marina square then rowena & wm going back tamp!

AHA! So leaving me with chew -.-

WHAT to do? head over to marina SOUTH to find kaizhi,joreen,adam & the DUO.

Wait for like nearly half hour for that bus that will bring us all the way into marina south..

so packed with people that we missed 3 buses. Conclusion took a taxi. ROFL.

oh ya highlight! ..fireworks was sweet (:

After everything head back to tamp wanted to catch a movie but was already 10 plus.

Ended up slacking at the basketball court near kz house,till about 12m i think.,yea thats it.

Tess's IT map thingy, i lazy post lei!

great news! i've found great people that will brighten up my dull world !

REJOICE! HAHA

tata!

i need cash! =D

2007-08-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

School is as boring as boring.. I'm trying so hard to understand every single formula for calculating speed,velocity blah blah. So to motivate myself to mug hard for physics i drew this real stupid thing on my hand "newton is love." well.. newton ..issac newton actually. He is the one who came up with all the strange formula,Strange guy..
Perhaps if teachers were to have more sense of humor i'll find more joy in going to school.

Exams are around the corner already! & i'm still not studying! Don't understand what's with the motivation thing, it just ain't coming. HOW?!
I really need to buck up ;D
i want to prove to EVERYONE what i'm capable of.
Ah cut the bragging.. Actions speaks louder than words.

I'm trying so hard to be a better kid,to stop doing things i'm not supposed to do.
& with that lil encouragement from friends,yea i think i can do it screw the temptations! ;D

& yes i'm still going gaga over you. How shitty is that?
I'm going emo again!! AH , SNAP the bloody shit out of it fan ;((
But at least i learn to cherish people around me.

Today halfway through maths lessons,i sort of realized its already
august,it gonna be december soon i was amazed by the speed. To see how much have change in the past few months & i was trying to recall every single detail of what happened in school from the starting of the term.
SIGH.

it's just what one couldn't give that made it hurt so badly.

2007-07-29T17:46:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone!
Sorry, havent been updating my blog,was rather busy on reading my half blood prince.
lol
School on Thrusday was extra "thrilling". Perhaps its due to the early dimissal for 3Gs & the finals between anglican & DMN!.A super well played match 64-63,DMN lost by just one point. haha. Dmn was amazing! Not Dmn i mean the players playing for Dmn was amazing. Anyway welldone! . After the match my ears were sort of hearing buzzinnggg sound ? maybe its the aftermath of miss yeo screaming her lungs out for the team? lol

School on Friday was "SHIOK~!" 12.30 dimiss ! We were slacking throughout most of the lesson,English lessons esp! we sat in a group sharing ghost stories.LOl WOW! scary know.
aha. & after school ,rush home for tution despite all the rushing uncle Zen was late. ._.
Got a message half way through my tution,it was from Hao saying " Fan, at night want go pasar malam?" & so at night we shopped at pasar malam, its fun! at least better than TM. Munhao had this crappy lame idea of playing Initial D. But NO i'm not going to waste My one dollar on drifting a car. So i tried playing this mario driving thingy super FUN! . blah blah blah..

& then SATURDAY! 2 Thumbs up for saturday!
no school,can sleep all the way till afternoon!
But i did'nt i woke up at about 11.30 & was really super excited.
Met up with hao&jovy and head over to the muay thai school. We wanted to enroll.!
We really wanted but we stood at the entrance for 15 mins bucking up courage to enter the school. & so we confronted this female ..eh wow.. lol she is much much more fit than 3 of us add together. & she pop this question "intrested in muay thai?" woohoo. yea hell yea.
she was rather ....cute =D ah whatever. haha
and so we ended up not able to sign up cos the coach was busy with his lessons.
SO GONNA GO BACK!.
after that was town........blah blah ,watch vacany with the help of tian hao cos i'm only 15 and that show..NC16,.BLAH BLAH. super nice show.
tatA!~

2007-07-25T14:37:00.000+08:00

I did say i wanted to mug hard for my physics test in the previous post right?
& i did..But then still fail i screwed up the optics part.Those critical angle & blah blah.
& maths test is on the same day as phy.lol
so i fail both ! man.. Forget it :(

miss tan absent herself for 2 days already,wonder why?..mm
i was struggling to keep my heavy eyelids wide open,super sleepy.
Despite the fact that i slept at about 10.30 yesterday night. At least it shows me that sleeping early won't make any difference at all. & all this lack of sleep thingy had a side effect,ya i got a bad cough&blocked nose, so can you imagine how i drag myself to school? lol

ohya,went out with en,jaime & susanti ytd was rather fun,full of laughter. hah
i won't elaborate any further on every single detail. haha
yep thats about it update real soon (:

Its just funny how i can still stay hooked on.
well perhaps thats what they call love.aha

2007-07-17T20:52:00.000+08:00

It was rather boring day in school today,in fact its so boring that i actually visted the toilet like at least five time. & i actually prepared sushi for breakfast & it tasted like any other ordinary sushi from those outlets, Pro huh? amateur cook like me :D
Cooking,my favourite pasttime.haha
Mr benard came into our class this morning dicussing about how to deal with our horrid behaviour. Ya so the solution was to suspend en & hafiqal from class.lol
Ya and then i was told by MDM hsu that my china buddy will be in singapore soon,real soon like next week. & guess whats his name? yi kuan or something,mine yi fan.lol Cool huh!

Social studies was the most dreadful period of the day :(
Miss wan is a nice teacher but her lessons are just way to boring,mm not really her lesson its more like the subject is boring. We were learning about the history of srilanka or what dont know what?.. & phy test is just 2 days from now. SHIT. I screw up the chpter on optics how? :(
I shall jump to all the events that happened after school?

Ok after school i was considering whether to go watch harry potter or not? We were supposed to watch it last week BUT smart johnathan booked it on the wrong date ! LOL huh!
they say harry potter was like crap,i think its nice. zul said it was 75% talking 25% action i love the talking part rather than the action. ;D
It was great! i love it. haha

ok thats it,i am going off to mug for phy T.T

2007-07-13T23:28:00.000+08:00

blog! ni hao ma?
i'm feeling good,very good. you know i'm going for harrypotter tmr.!
super excited,but from all the comments i heard from my classmates...
they say it was rather disapointing,well we shall see. Maple is really getting boring already,i'm playing for the sake of my classmates they started playing few months back i think. So all of them lvling faster then i am i'm stuck at 10x for like 2,3 days. & i really miss pasir ris park,east coast park,the smell of nature,the feeling of the wind blowing through my hair. OH it feels super good. CYCLE ? =D woo !
&&&&& yaya OCH! going there real soon real real soon.
school is as shity as before,the dust,noise & the crappy canteen is really making life in school like
-________________-
& i catch nothing in maths lesson NOTHING AT ALL.
so lucky me mum found me a tution teacher and waiman is joining me too so i'l be like less bored.
Tess is really dumbo at times really,the question she ask is real cute ! HAHA! super funny. & so tz,me,chew,row & wm will be like giving her the wtf look.! lol
why am i posting about tess? ok stop.
Next ..........mmm LIT play! man it was funny the mr mah sound ,mr lo and all the crap,and i'm playing the role of demetrius ! cool huh! a silly guy who falls in love with hermia when helena is deeply in love with him. what a dumbo! lol

well well thats it,just wanna vist parks soon! (:

2007-07-08T01:31:00.000+08:00

Its been nearly a week since a last post. I was just simply too lazy =D
I wont be able to type out all the happenings through out this entire week.
My fingers are numb. haha
& so went catch die hard 4 at marina today with the bunch of them.
super fun going out with them laugh laugh & laugh ! & blah blah blah
well the highlight of the day would be the fortune telling part,Tianhao actually knew how to so call "read your palm" thingy he told me everything i need to know about how my life will be in the yet to come days & some part of whatever is happening now. He is like sort of right ? ohokok. KIND OFF .i dont know,i dont know anything about myself either.
& ya watch die hard 4 its super nice. filled with actionnnnnnnnnnn...

consider the fact that whatever he said was right.maybe i should really start doing all those planing for my future? Get out of my unrealistic dreams of flying into space, being a zoo keeper & whatever. Cos all this stuff wont get me far in life. Maybe i should be like all typical normal human beings thinking about earning cash? But honestly i'm not
interested in cash,to me to pursue my dreams would be much better than any money making. I dont know ? tell me what to do? someone ? anyone?
oh ya the relationship part ..ahah! the real shitty part. =D
Its gonna be 1 in the first place ,number 2 will come soon . But it wont be like number 1 the feel wont be as intense as number 1
Man its real faked up.
TATA!

1 year.

2007-07-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

I hate the ending myself,But it started with an alright scene.

It was dunman's cross country yesterday we were supposed to meet at pasir ris park
to run? in the morning.
I wanted to go for cross country but my legs were acting up like !@#$%
& it was jess's birthday,so i choose to rather skip cross country & celebrate her birthday.
I woke up a about 9 when i am supposed to be at ling's house at 8.30 . LOL.
so i was running super late,got everything done at a swift speed & headed off to ling's house
we celebrated jess's birthday at East Coast Park,sort of have this budget picnic.
Trust me real real budget. we used trash bags as a sitting mat. =D
There was only about 8 of us,the numbers were rather disapointing.
But it was still fun.We rented those two person sort of bikes,
super cool huh :)
Enough of yesterday.

i'm looking forward to tmr! Transformer~
HAAH.