A glimpse in my head. A five cent worth point of view

Hi,its been awhile since i last done a proper update. Everything feels kinda on the right track now, at least as far as i know. Well that would for sure exclude my studies, im starting to wonder whether was it a wise decision for me to take my o levels this year or would it be better for me and my parents if i went to ite. Fancy dreaming about going to JC or poly seems so distanced and unrealistic right now, i was so horrified at my mid year results. Nevertheless i am aware that my result would inevitably ignite the burning sparks in my parents -_- and hell i was right. Sigh

Yes yes i'm also aware that i disappoint them and that i failed as a son cos to them my responsibility and priority right now should be studies instead of hanging out at night. Not saying that they are wrong, i know i am suppose to study but sometimes i really wonder are we studying for knowledge or are we studying for that pay cheque in the not so far-away future or just simply studying to become working machines that works with no intention,purpose and enthusiasm towards life. I mean we only live once and if we're gonna spend our life slogging away for money, i see no point in living, it is true i'm not gonna go anywhere w/o at least a degree but if studying is just for the sake of money that will be used to satisfy our material needs i rather not study. It just totally ruin the whole purpose of studying and burns away my interest and zest towards the pursue of knowledge..

well.. what is the future? "FUCK THE FUTURE, BECOS THE FUTURE IS NOW" -horinaka.com If we're all gonna take look at the "future", who is to say we might not even need education to survive in this fast paced society in the "future"..

i would rather go back to the most primitive point of man-kind when the only struggle for survival was just struggling to hunt for food. Simple and really basic. Having said all of these nonsense i must still emphasise on the importance of studying cos this is reality, all of it was just my wishful thinking, i just needed my time out and shouting space on how i feel and i cant possibly share it with my parents or friends cos they would prolly think I'm crazy and suggest i quit school.

WELL WELL. I'll work hard i promise.