Not gonna dwell

I've been spending my weekends in a really systematic routine. Which needless to say,bores me to the extreme. However it was still an emotional and beautiful week. I see gloomy clouds and rainy weather when i try to picture this and next week,its the beginnings of prelims starting next week which is to say no more fun and jumping around this week. Its time to smell and breathe books,the thought of it irks me and makes me feel really angst and i know how much ground i have to make up with so much to squeeze into my slightly-bigger-than-pea brain with so little time. Inevitably spells d-e-a-t-h.
To add on to my woes and sorrows.. is the finance part. I super the very broke, and i have no idea where i spend my money on. They seem to appear this moment and disappear the next ?

And the last crushing weight and burden would be you.
You have the ability to create miracles and
good things good feelings anchors down deep in me at your presence.
but they never last, and i really hope good happenings last as long as possible.
Cos im not gonna dwell here anymore i promise, im moving on. regardless